The Space Between Us

There wasn't a fight, there wasn't a door that slammed
No single word that broke us, no moment that I can name
It happened like the seasons, so slowly I almost missed
The way you started fading from the life we used to live
Your chair is at the table, but you haven't sat there long
Your voice is in my memory, but the phone stays silent on
I replay all the small things, all the crossroads where we veered
And wonder how two people who loved so much end up here

I don't know when the distance grew so wide
I only know I miss you
And I'm not sure you know I'm on this side
Still reaching, still reaching

There's a space between us now
That I don't know how to cross
Full of all the words unspoken
And the tenderness we lost
I still love you like I always did
That part has never changed
There's just this space between us now
And I'm learning how to live
With the space between us

I've turned it over endlessly like stones along a shore
Was it something that I carried, was it something at my core
Did I hold on far too tightly, did I not hold on enough
Is the space between us my fault, yours, or simply just
The weight of two lives moving in directions of their own
Two people who share history but no longer share a home
I've made my peace a thousand times and lost it just as fast
Some griefs don't have an ending — they just quietly outlast

I don't know how to unlove what we were
I only know I miss you
And somewhere underneath the hurt, I'm sure
You're still in there, still in there

There's a space between us now
That I don't know how to cross
Full of all the words unspoken
And the tenderness we lost
I still love you like I always did
That part has never changed
There's just this space between us now
And I'm learning how to live
With the space between us

Maybe someday the distance softens
Maybe you find your way back to my door
Maybe we learn to hold each other differently
Than we ever could before
And if that day never comes to find us
I'll carry you the only way I can
With an open hand instead of a closed fist
And love that doesn't need you to understand
Because letting go is not the same as leaving
And silence isn't always the end of care
Sometimes love just changes into something
Too big for words — but still, still there

There's a space between us now
And I'm sitting with the loss
Of all the words I should have said
And all the bridges that we crossed
I still love you like I always did
That will never change
There's just this space between us now
And I'm learning — slowly learning
Aching — quietly aching
Living — still living
With the space between us

I don't need it to be perfect.
I don't need it to be fixed.
I just want you to know —
the door on my side
It is never fully closed.